A Gentle Answer

I have been getting my Daily Romantic Horoscope for probably 3 or 4 yrs in my email everyday. I stopped reading them about 2 yrs ago, but for some reason I read today's:

"Finding a balance between your responsibilities and your leisure activities can sometimes seem like an impossible task. The easiest way to even the scales is to keep your commitments low. Don't take on too many projects that don't further your goals towards love and success."

This is what most of my friends and family have been subtly telling me for the past year or two. I have always kept multiple commitments, because I have some stuff inside me that makes me need to. I feel awkward if I am in a setting where I could be helping. If I am at a fundraiser or a convention I need to have a responsibility. And usually if it is a big event I am on the committee to plan it, so that I have an idea of what will happen. This does not sound like a bad quality, but sometimes, I might do it for the wrong reasons.
Please believe me when I say that my heart is in the right place, but a lot of the time I over commit, so that I do not fall away. I am the type of person that will fall into isolation in my apartment if I do not commit to someone that I will be somewhere.
There is nothing wrong with this, but when you commit yourself to at least one thing everyday it can get overwhelming. The last line of the horoscope 'Don't take too many projects that don't further your goals towards love and success' I always feel a sense of love when I am helping others, but it is not in pursuit of the 'romantic love' that this horoscope is insistent that I will find.
Today I feel I will blog more than once, but when I saw that I knew I had to.
Yesterday was Jesus' birthday and an eventful one at that. But I will chose not to disclose too many details, for the fact that I can not change it.
I wish that I could change situations or people but I can only change myself and the way that I react to situations. Sometimes I do not chose the best way to act, but that is why there is a thing called forgiveness. KLove's encouraging word was also emailed to me this morning. Again this is relative to yesterday and can be applied daily, at least in my life:

"A gentle answer deflects anger, but harsh words make tempers flare. "
~ Proverbs 15:1

I chose to take action instead of use words last night, which I am sure will come back to me. I knew that had I used words my anger and frustration would be the only thing that would come out. A lot of times I speak before thinking and I deal with the consequences immediately. I was able to not speak yesterday, but still did not act ideally. I will work on it, progress not perfection.